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I just dont have enough energy to explain. Here I go!

It sucks too, because he doesn’t understand that he isn’t there for me. Within these two horrible days I’ve been having, he hasn’t been present. I check up on him Amit just so I don’t miss anything. I mean, we live at a distance. I can’t walk…

tedeezy:

chooses to stay with the guy who hurt her? Cause despite that, he knows how to make her happy. There may be cuter guys out there, but she doesn’t care about that cause to her, nobody can compare. He does more right things than wrong so she stays with him for all the right things he’s done and not leave him for that one mistake. And she knows no matter who she ends up with, they’re gonna fight regardless and she would rather deal with no one else, but him.

I use to think that way… Now I laugh at myself. I’d rather deal with my own bullshit.

Putting everything away in a box.

Valentine’s Day

Since I’ve been truly happy. I hide behind a fake smile and I go on about my day just pretending like everything is okay. I wanted to write something long and meaningful but I’ve poured my heart out before and it got me no where but where I stand now…

Sad.. Hurt.. Used.. Abused.. Worthless..

Yeah, I’ve been good for the most part but I was never perfect. No one will be perfect. Everyone has flaws. I’ve grown to admit to my flaws learned to accept that everyone has them. I never thought I was a bad person and never thought that I could feel so much pain.

But i’m tired of this. I’m tired of having feelings… I just want to let it all go.
The last thing I want to say is that I love my family, my friends, and everyone that has ever had to deal with my shit and continues too. I love you all. I especially love my close friends. This is in no order i’m just going to name everyone as a go along. I’m going to make this brief but sincere.

Jenny Mak & Chris Phann… Thank you for having to deal with my shit day after day and thank you for coming up to my house at 11pm that night and sitting there with me til 3am.

Stanley & Manish… Thank you for listening to me complain and cry about stupid bullshit I know you guys get tired of hearing me talk but honestly it means a lot to me. I love you guys so much you guys have seen me at my worse.

Joanne & Jenny Dao… Thanks for being there from the beginning to the end. I’m sorry we’ve lost time with one another over stupid shit but the time that we had with each other I won’t ever forget. I’ll always miss it. Thank you for coming back into my life.

Cindy Nguyen… I love you and I always will you’re one of the strongest people I know in my life. You’ve taught me a lot about myself. Thank you for being here for me. You have such a kind heart and one day someone will realize that you’re one of a kind.

Diana Le & Lisa Vo… You two are great to me. I love you guys so much. You are two very special people in my life. I love you both. Thank you for everything you have done for me. You guys are such great people and deserve nothing but the best. You guys have been there forever and I’m glad that you guys stayed in my life.

Rubin Vo & Ying… Rubin you’re my brother. I love you dude. I’m so glad that you’ve become one of the closest things to me. I’m happy I met you. You are a wonderful guy. You legit are like blood to me you are like family. Thank you for being there for me when you never had to be and to come and talk to me whenever you had time. Ying, I love you too. You are a good girl you have a lot ahead of you stop being so crazy girl. I appreciate for the times you have been there to talk to me to hear me cry about how upset i get. I’m grateful that you’ve been in my life too.

Mina Bumar.. I haven’t known you that long but I love you so much. You have taught me so much. You’ve taught me to be the best person I can be and there is someone who will appreciate it. You’ve appreciated the things I’ve done for you left and right. Thank you.

Tommy Tran… Thanks for being there when I needed someone bro. You have a big heart and you are a great person. Thanks for caring man 

Makayla Smith… I love you. I am forever in debt to you because you have dealt with my shit left and right while you had so much on your own plate. You have always been there for me to cry my heart out. You have always been that person that I could just let everything go of when I’m with you. I love you so fucking much you have no idea. I love you always

Carla Prophete, Asia Madison, Jessica Semexant… I’m sorry if I haven’t been keeping in contact as much but things have just been crazy. I just want you guys to know I love you just as much. I love you all with all my heart. You guys have been nothing but good to me. You guys are great friends and very great people. Each of you guys have so much ahead of you. Thank you for being my friends.

To my WIT bros… Derek Mendes, Ariel Martinez, Jorge Reyes, Carlos Perez, Michel Pujols, Alwing Abad, Eric Depina, Javier Ballester, Zak, Dubz, Nico, Santiago… I love you guys and you guys were always right. You guys have been there for me and we haven’t even known each other that long. I love you guys so fucking much you have no idea you guys are the family I never had as an only child. You guys are the siblings I wish I had. Thank you for dealing with me. I love you guys.

Also thank you to my fam bam Gordon Lee, Simon Ngo, Wangjor Tenzin, Kevin Liang, Byron Nguyen and everyone I have already mentioned. You guys are the best.

Jennie Phan… Saved you for last. Thank you. I love you. I may be annoyed with you here and there but honestly you’ve been nothing but good to me. Keep up in school you’re going some where and going to do it big. I love you so fucking much. You come over whenver i’m sad or miserable and i appreciate that you have the time of day for me. 

I love my St.Gregs Fam, Mount Fam, Love Culture Fam, Asian Fam, each and everyone of you.  

I love all of my friends who have ever been here to deal with me. I love all of you guys. If I didn’t mention you it’s because I’m in such a rush right now everything is just too overwhelming. I love you all each and everyone of you.

I also love my real family. You guys aren’t last you guys just have been there through everything theres really nothing for me to write because everything i wrote for everyone else you guys have done. You guys have seen me grow up and go through everything. I love you guys so much.

I also want to say last but not least… Even though you managed to bring me down and hurt me so much I want to let you know I love you and care for you even though you think I’m the fucking devil. I love you kid and always will I always care for your well being. You know who you are. Please take care of yourself and please continue to do well in school and stop taking up bad habits like drinking so much it’s not good for your health. Thanks for everything. I love you.

 I love all of you guys. Thank you so much. Good bye <3

fuckyeahtattoos:

This is my first tattoo. It’s an Albertosaurus skeleton, which is a species of dinosaur that’s native to the province of Canada I was born in. I moved to New Zealand with my parents when I was nine and I’ve been living there for the last 10 years, so when I came back to Calgary for a holiday a few weeks ago I decided I wanted to get a tattoo that symbolised my heritage (in a fairly original/bad ass way). My tattoo artist (whose name has unfortunately slipped my mind at the moment) did an amazing job, and the whole thing was over in just over an hour. Didn’t even hurt that bad either! Couldn’t be happier :)

Done at the Smiling Buddha in Calgary, AB, Canada

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